It was the worst of days, AND it was the BEST of days! It was the day we buried my mother just a few weeks ago. My mother was having the BEST of days as she began her new life in eternity with Jesus. I wouldn't wish her back for anything! Honestly, it was also the worst of days! It was the end of having a parent on this earth. I would never again hear her voice or kiss her cheek. I would never again look into those beautiful blue eyes and know she loves me no matter what! Did I mention I HATE death! I even think God means for us to hate death. It's part of understanding how much we need Jesus!
The memorial service was in the morning and the graveside several hours drive away in the afternoon. We have lots of family! I have 3 sisters and 2 brothers (one is in Heaven). We all married, and my mother considered the children she got by marriage as much hers as the ones she birthed. There were 21 grandchildren - all but 4 married. There are close to 40 great-grandchildren with several on the way. All in all in round numbers it's right at 90 immediate family, and all were there for the memorial service except for 2 moms who had week old newborn babies, and one grandson's wife who is having a baby soon. It's hard to be lonely in such a crowd of loving family!
We were all walking into the service together, and my brother told me to go first with our sons, their wives, and our grandchildren. Because John was helping with the service, I was alone. I reached my hand back for a granddaughter to walk with me. Only one saw and took my hand. She not only walked with me to the front row, but she sat as close to me as glue the entire time hugging me and being hugged.
On a day like that day when death intrudes into life is when it's easy to be lonely even in a crowd of loving family. I was that kind of lonely, and I needed the touch of a hand and hugs. God sent me that hand and those hugs! Thank you, Vania! And, thank you all for your hands and hugs on one of the BEST-worst days of my life!
There's a lesson for my heart here that reaches out: there is always someone who needs a hand and a hug but it takes eyes to see and a heart to understand!